DAY 107 ; ): 

Really sorry for not blogging for so long, i'm quite busy nowadays because i'm a secondary student now!! ^^

But the main thing i want to blog today was "ALONE". I think i've blogged this before but i want to blog this one more time.. :(

Hais.... i already have a family who doesn't trust me, the only problem to solve it was friendship. But now, even friends dont trust me for a moment i feel life was meaningless but i thinked twice, but God was always here, you was there. I wasn't alone. I didn't lead such a worse life afterall.

But all this was hidden, i can only feel it but i can't see it.. what's the point. If you realised, i wasn't laughing so much like last time because i dont see there's a need anymore. ):

I dont know how to describe this feeling, i felt my heart was shivering....

I know you wasn't pushing me away, but you ain't fighting for me either. You took the effort to cheer me up, but i dont feel the effort at all... i just hope storm will passed, will you make me feel more loved..

DAY 106

HELLO. Long since i blog, because i'm really really busy with school works. First; Study Second; Band
2013 have been well so far, but who knows? But let just live life to our fullest.

It's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to just stare at that line for the rest of your life. && the longest and toughest distance that i need to cover, is the first step. I need time, to gather all my courage, to let go of my fears, i know i can do this. (:

The best thing that you can do in life is to follow your heart. Don't just take the safe and easy choices because you're afraid of what might happen, because i would rather do something and find out that it was the wrong thing, than never know if it was the right thing. ♡

Orientation camp this Friday!

DAY 105

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Its been hard in 2012, and now we gonna begin our lives in 2013. 13th chapter of life, page 1 of 365.

2012 has really made me learn alot. Who says it was easy to go through things alone. I honestly like the last few months of 2012, the first few months suck. Opps.

Throw away all the flashbacks in 2012, and live a colourful life in 2013. New year new me, i really gonna work hard. Oh yeah, and i just got my eagles award ^-^

*HOW I COUNT DOWN ON 31ST DECEMBER?

I joined called with Amanda, Phanipha, Nurul, Sotong, Rock and ChenYong :>
The weirdest yet most special way to end 2012 and start 2013. Because it was super messy.

DAY 104

I got my posted sch result on the 19th of December :) I got in Bendemeer Secondary which was my first choice. I wasn't really happy because it was not my dream school... 

The fact i cant get in my dream sch was I didn't reach the aggregate :( So too bad. Nevermind, move on. 

BYE EDGEFIELD, HELLO BENDEMEER. 

So i got in 1E2, which was super surprising la. I thought i would be in the last express class hehehe But then also need to study hard to stay in E2, nothing comes easy. My PSLE result was also super surprising. Few months back when i back my prelim result i was like "I'm hopeless...." SO SAD I EVEN CRIED. But finally. Storm passed. Smile :) 

And also, my brother got back his 'N' level result. I hope he do well in the future too!! 

This is how i look like with BSS uniform LOL. Looks kinda weird in me isn't it? :/

Ending off with this song.

 

Be your everything- Boys like Girls

DAY 103 ; 12/12/12

#np Blue

Today's de 12/12/12. Which is 十二,十二 爱你爱你. Spended the day with my clique and some boys. We played a childhood game, block catching. BLOCK CATCHING IS STILL THE BEST CHILDHOOD GAME. Actually today i didnt want to blog about my life but something not exactly part of our life but is my own particular life.

ALONE.

I swear sometimes i feel very alone. "When sometimes even your friends dont understand you" Friends are the most important part of our life and money is the (least) important. They say money is evil because we always put money as the most important thing and always left others thing behind, but money is only evil if you think that way. But to me, God is always first.

I need to understand that maybe sometimes my friend dont understand me because they didnt been through what I had been through. But perhaps they'll understand one day.

It's just too harsh that sometimes they just tell somebody to give up easily but you dont know how it feels like.

When every bad thing happen, i always tell myself to be optimistic in order to stay strong. I always did, but sometimes my mind just divert and think of all the negetive things. "Prepare for the worst" because i always have the mindset to think this way.

It's 12/12/12 today maybe you can confess to your crush? Who knows if he/she likes you too?