DAY 102

Sorry i didnt post for a really long time because i went to a trip to Hong Kong so yeah.

Feeling so troubled these days so i decided to blog. There's a friend who always having problems and tell me "they are really good people, i dont wanna hurt them."  During that point of time, i was like " but you dont want them to get hurt in the end right?" I said it so easy. "You never know how it feels until it happened to you." The worst part of now is i dont know about my feelings..... I dont want him to be my subsitude because i'm all alone now. I rather be alone.

Fated to meet but not destined to be together.

Giving up is hard. It's just a part of life you have to go through. Me myself, i haven't got over him completely yet. I still look at him. I still think of him. It still hurts when i see him with other girls. Who said it was easy to move on and live as though he don't exist? It sucks to be me when it comes to love. I never knew how to handle it, i'm just too careless and clumsy.

But after these few emotional nights, i thought about it. Fate brought us together but destiny didn't allow it.

Why not just follow what has been planned? Maybe God planned something better ahead? Who knows?

I made a brave choice. I gave up on everyone.

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DAY 101

I should not be blogging at this hour but because of some problems.. i have to blog. I really hope you read this post, send in your spy or whatever okay.

Dear you know who you are,

I know its been hard for you to keep having the interest to talk to me. Because i know i'm very boring, but in reality, what i want was to have a proper conversation with you only. Why is it that when you feel like talking to me, you talk to me, dont want talk to me then throw me aside? Do you even know how it feels like? Insecure, i'm only afraid because there are more other pretty girls out there, they can just snatch you away easily.. by their looks.

You want the truth? I still have feelings for you. No matter how hard i try, a part of me just wont let go. I wish i could call you "mine". I wish i could say that there's an "us". I wish you felt the same way. Do you know i tried so hard to move on? Trust me, it wasn't easy. But you know what? Every single time when i'm about to give up completely, you just appear and make me fall in love all over again. It's so difficult to get over you.

Do you know how i feel when you give me cold replies? I don't know what to text back, but i don't want the conversation to end. All the while i've been putting much effort just to keep a simple conversation going. I always hated the fact that if i dont start a conversation there won't be one. You may not be pushing me away, but you're not fighting for me either. There are so many reasons for me to give up on you. But there are no reasons why should i not.

I thought i was special, then i realised you were like that to every girl. You are the only person i would love to hate yet you are the only person i can't. I feel like i'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen.

But the more boys i meet, the more i feel like you are the only one i want to be with. My mind tells me to give up but my heart tells me not to. They all tell me, "the more you care, the more it hurts". I kept thinking of how you never think of me at all. And you dont know how hard it is to make it look easy. There's a point in life when i get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything.

Im moving on, no more waiting, no more hurt. When you finally realise i've stop texting you, you need to understand that i've got tired of waiting. 

Regards, me.

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DAY 99 & 100 :)

DAY 99

Date check: 18 Nov 2012 :) 

I went for the audio mob with friends HAHA. If you were asking what is it about, well.. if you were at orchard at evening on 18nov, i think you have seen us. It's like a whole big group of people, having a music and with their earpiece in, we will follow the instruction from what was given from the music. 

Some of the examples was: Stretch yourself, walking backwards and also freeze at a post at the middle of the road and many more ;) 

We were given a goodie bag and this was two of the items which was inside. 

The music lasted about 1hr and we were gathered at the top of the dont know where HAHAHA. They gave us balloons and told us to write our wishes and we let go of them into the sky together. I actually wanted to put what i wish for but end up i didnt xD wtf  And also, the image on top was balloons haha. YOU DONT SAY?

Remember about the NEON PAINT at the top image just now? We were told to put at our face/hand/leg and then i go and put into my entire face and i look like shit XD And here's de result.

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TAH DAH!! :D 

DAY 100

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DAY 98 ; Dedications

This post is specially for 6R, so i hope all of you from the class will read this post. But i dont really think so.. today is our graduation tea party, cried and i look ugly walao :( First, i wanna thank my class for making this year so awesome!

Maybe i can write down their names. Chrystabelle, Marie, Joey, Dharani, phanipha, Fatihah, fauzana, jiayi, stephanie, Amanda, Amalia, firdose, Hautong, Rock, Saad, Kyo, HongQing, XuGang, Xinhu, Justin, Ryan, John, Weekeong, Aiman.

Thankyou all of you, you all are very awesome people. Count myself lucky to have u all as friends. ♡

6R Memories---

-That time when we "yeaaaaah" moli.
-Moli's famous line. "Hard pressed for time", "brainless creature" "gundu".
-MOLI'S FACE! ASDFGHJKL.

Although 6R is always hated by alot of teachers, but we are always united and in high spirt. 6R'12♡♡

-ONCE A PART OF 6R, ALWAYS A PART OF 6R. ت

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DAY 97

Its been a while since i blogged. Just wanna say that everything is fine. :) Its Deepavali holiday tmr so we will have no school tomorrow. Happy Advanced Deepavali :>

Like usual, we went school, sing school song and then head back to class. But, because we are graduating, we will have a party and we will perform a item for everyone, for our class, we are performing a dance and a so called "negative and positive space"

Sad that we are graduating.. :( Let me have a quote for all of you.

"No matter how much you hate your school, when it ends, you will really miss it." :( But i wanna thank my class for making my year so awesome :')

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